2017 was an interesting year for me. I had a lot of challenges going on and a lot of confusion. I experienced some anxiety and just an over all "i do not know what I am going to do" feeling. It was actually a lot worse than that, but most you probably "get it".

I was developing an eating disorder. I have no idea what the name of it would be, but the symptom was just eating, not purging, but just eating, eating and more eating. There was a reason for this and it was because 18 months prior to that I had a cold. It developed to a fever of 102 degrees for about 4 days.

I started to feel better. I did not eat much during those 4 days, and when I was feeling better, I became very hungry. I was eating a deli sandwich, roast beef with some kind of cheese, mayo, mustard, and lots of vegetables. I was truly enjoying this sandwich. The memory is very vivid.

The very next day I was making lasagna. I was definitely feeling better. Not 100% but, I really wanted Italian.

I could not taste it. I figured it was part of the virus I had just gotten over.

For the next few days, I could not taste anything I was eating, I realized that I could not smell the coffee brewing in the morning, or the hairspray or even my son's dog.

I could not smell the skunk that just sprayed in the neighborhood.

I had no idea what was going on, but, what I did know was that I could not smell and I could not taste.

So I went to "Google" and Google gave me a name - it is a disorder called ANOSMIA -

It is not common and it is the inability to taste or smell.

This is why I was eating - I kept thinking in my head, "maybe I can will myself to taste and smell again, I want to taste again, so maybe the next bite? The next bite? the next bite? This went on for 18 months. I had MRI, CTScan, steroids, xrays, scopes - etc done trying to find a cause that could be fixed, other than a 4 day fever, which as it turns out is what caused my Anosmia, my olfactory nerves, were basically fried.

I can tell if something is bitter, sweet, salty or sour, but I cannot tell you if it is chocolate or vanilla.

I cannot smell a gas leak or spoiled food. I can tell if there is a gas, (like gasoline) but I cannot tell if it is gasoline. I cannot smell ammonia, but the irritant in a corrosive is irritating to me.

Strong colognes cause my nose, inside, to burn and are an irritant.

I was in a bad place last year, mid July.

And my ENT, the wonderful and amazing Dr. Davis, never offered me hope, but did give me truth and was willing to support whatever it was that I could also come up with.

I was in a very bad place. Dr. Davis even said that with this eating issue I had that I was very obese, as well.

Within a couple of weeks, in pure desperation, an ad popped up on my Facebook page, "Westside Hypnotherapy - Jake Y. Rubin" I figured, why not. I called Jake and it was almost immediately that my own personal journey started. I felt hope. I felt a possibility and I have never looked back.

Through the amazing and powerful tool of hypnotherapy, I have been able to think clearly and get rid of the "monkey mind," find "me" again and gain a sense of purpose and well-being- not to mention self worth and CONFIDENCE. I enjoyed the first 4 sessions so much that when Jake said that he had a special certification in weight loss and hypnotherapy, I said, "sign me up" and he asked me to make a commitment for 8 to 10 weeks, for which I did. I immediately started seeing results, not just weight loss but my attitude, my countenance, my "all of me" including health was changing and I was creating a more positive me!

On August 4, 2017 when I had my first session with Jake I was 236 lbs. On September first I was 230 lbs and Today, as I write this, March 23, 2018 - I weigh 175 lbs. And I am not done. I have a goal weight of 135 and the best part about it, this is no longer a 'diet' - it is a way of life for me. See the amazing pictures and know this, I have several goals and missions in this later part of my life and one of them is to educate and help people.

August 22, 2017 I made the decision to leave law school and join the hypnotherapy school at HMI Hypnosis Motivational Institute in Tarzana, CA and become a Certified Hypnotherapist. I want to affect lives and help people, whomever they are, to make the positive changes they desire in their life. I do not have the right to feel this amazing and keep it to myself. Everyone deserves to feel amazing and live an amazing life.

I told my hypnotherapist at our last session that I believe my destiny is to help people. I want people to be inspired, not because of me, but as symptom of happiness and successfulness.

I will be graduating this year from the school of hypnotherapy at Hypnosis Motivational Institute (HMI) and I will be a Certified Hypnotherapist. My specialties will be weight loss with Hypnotherapy as well as, chronic pain, tinnitus, pain management, and if you want to quit smoking, I can help you do that, too.

I love my new chosen career. I heard it said that if you love what you do, you never have to work a day in your life. I am in my internship now and absolutely love it.

One final word on Hypnosis, ANOSMIA and APPRECIATION - an instructor at HMI has given some amazing lectures on being appreciative - Joe Tabbanella - focus your attention on being appreciative. I found my appreciative in Anosmia.

I have no desire, at this moment to get my smell or taste sensations back. It was because of Anosmia that I am here where I am and it has become more of my "super power."

As for Hypnosis - do not be afraid or scared of this word. It has had a negative stigma for years but, it is probably the most organic, holistic modality that I have ever experienced. I feel safe, I feel empowered and at no time do I sense or feel any kind of loss of control. I absolutely believe there is something amazing to this and the results I have achieved are mind blowing!!

Thank you for reading my blog post today. If you have any questions please contact me.

Give yourself the best and hang all the rest! Change is OK!

Shine On!

Ilah